Saturday, August 31, 2013

The Witness Tree

The Witness Tree

But ye shall receive power, after that the Holy Ghost is come upon you: and ye shall be witnesses unto me both in Jerusalem, and in all Judaea, and in Samaria, and unto the uttermost part of the earth. (Acts 1:8)

Recently I was blessed to be up North and had the opportunity to run the trails in the wood’s of Kalkaska, Michigan. I have a few set courses that I run and there is one course that I call the Kalkaska Figure Eight. Well as I came upon the intersecting part of the trails, I looked up and saw this very prominent sign next to a large tree. The area around the tree had been obviously cleared for this ‘special’ sign. As I approached the sign I noticed that the heading made this statement, "The Witness Tree". Below this heading was a paragraph describing what they meant by this heading. Apparently, on September 26, 1850 a large sugar maple tree was planted as a witness and a testimony to future generations. It stood for a past that had long ago disappeared from the face of the earth. They had a ceremony commemorating the event and I thought about those who had gathered around to mark the occasion. What must have gone through their mind? They knew that the tree had the potential to live way beyond their years and they would die long before the ‘witness’ may ever become a witness. Yet now, in the middle of this vast acreage of woods, here stood out a huge sign commemorating this ‘Witness Tree’. It had survived 158 years after the ceremony. It’s planters were long gone, but it was still here proclaiming that they had once existed. That there was a people who looked to the future and though they would not be there they wanted the future to be able to take a moment and acknowledge the past. To remember them, their toil, and their labor.
Immediately I thought about God. I thought about the past and I thought about the future. What kind of a ‘Witness Tree’ am I? What does the future hold? I thought of the many times when people who once were in church, whether it be student or adult, and they would come back to church. I am not sure what excites me more; the fact that they have returned or whether I am still here. That I am still a ‘witness tree’ standing in the midst of a crazy world commemorating a planting that took place over twenty-one years ago. As that tree endured 158 years of seasons, so I have endured a few years of changing seasons. Although the number of seasons are not as high in number, as a human ‘witness tree’, whose year’s of life are not as long as that tree, yet I have remained planted. Who knows what that tree may have endured over the years. Fires, droughts, competition for the light of the sun, pollution, and human encroachment. If one could open up the trunk of that tree and look at the seasonal ring lines, it would be possible to ‘see’ what that tree had to endure over the last 150 years. The amazing thing is I had run that road countless times over the past four or five years and I never knew that there was anything different about that tree. It was crowded out by other trees. It was nothing but a tree standing in the midst of the forest. Funny that I couldn’t see the tree for the forest, isn’t it! Yet, there it was, 158 years later standing as a ‘Witness Tree’. Grown up from a sapling to a full grown adult tree proclaiming victory over the natural course of this world.
In the instant I saw this tree my mind raced both to the past and to the future. From the natural to the spiritual. Life is but a vapor and how quickly it passes by. There in a moment I saw the Lord Jesus Christ. And unto the angel of the church of the Laodiceans write; These things saith the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of the creation of God; (Rev 3:14) The TRUTH still stands and has withstood the test of time. Seasons come and seasons go, yet God’s word stands true. Though carnality tries to drown the truth out. Though the world seemingly makes the truth look insignificant IT STILL STANDS as a witness against it. Heaven and earth shall pass away: but my words shall not pass away. (Mark 13:31) In the midst of a carnal Roman Empire God birthed a Witness Tree of victory. The ceremony was the day of Pentecost which declares that all who are willing can be a testimony of victory over the past and into the future. Trees of RIGHTEOUSNESS in the midst turmoil and death.
There is something about the past that emboldens me! Although I cannot go back, I don’t have to repeat it. There are many in this life who have horrible pasts. Seasons of dismay, hurt, abuse, and pain. Yet to some the pain becomes something they live in, dwell in, and cast a bleak vision of their future in. But there are those who use their past to become springboards of a future witness of victory. It has been said that there are trees who only after the drought become stronger and there are trees who become more susceptible to disease because of the drought. There are trees that need fire, because it is the natural lightening strikes of fire that activate the cone of a pine tree to open up and release the seeds of the future. Oh Lord, help me to endure the fire, that my life may release the seeds of victory and eternal life to my family and those around me!
It was the faithful and true witness of Jesus Christ that spawned saplings of victory in the Truth. Paul ran to the guillotine, Peter was crucified upside down, and the rest of the Apostles faced a similar fate! Leaving us a past as a witness to this Truth. Signs pointing to a clear evidence that the Truth existed before us, it still stands today, and it will still be here long after we are gone. Help me Lord Jesus to be that Witness Tree! To stand boldly in the midst of opposing forces proudly proclaiming my heritage and boldly standing as a witness in the present. Enduring the seasonal temptations of the flesh and lifting my hands up high toward the Sun of Righteousness, in faith, that the future will bring all that the Truth is empowered to give us!

Submitted by: Elder David Green

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Mercy endureth

 
 
Ps 118
O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: because his mercy endureth for ever.
Let Israel now say, that his mercy endureth for ever.
Let the house of Aaron now say, that his mercy endureth for ever.
Let them now that fear the LORD say, that his mercy endureth for ever.
I called upon the LORD in distress: the LORD answered me, and set me in a large place.
The LORD is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me?
The LORD taketh my part with them that help me:
therefore shall I see my desire upon them that hate me.
It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.
It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in princes.
All nations compassed me about: but in the name of the LORD will I destroy them.
They compassed me about; yea, they compassed me about:
but in the name of the LORD I will destroy them.
They compassed me about like bees; they are quenched as the fire of thorns:
 for in the name of the LORD I will destroy them.
Thou hast thrust sore at me that I might fall: but the LORD helped me.
The LORD is my strength and song, and is become my salvation.
The voice of rejoicing and salvation is in the tabernacles of the righteous:
the right hand of the LORD doeth valiantly.
The right hand of the LORD is exalted: the right hand of the LORD doeth valiantly.
I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the LORD.
The LORD hath chastened me sore: but he hath not given me over unto death.
Open to me the gates of righteousness: I will go into them, and I will praise the LORD:
This gate of the LORD, into which the righteous shall enter.
I will praise thee: for thou hast heard me, and art become my salvation.
The stone which the builders refused is become the head stone of the corner.
This is the LORD's doing; it is marvellous in our eyes.
This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.
Save now, I beseech thee, O LORD: O LORD, I beseech thee, send now prosperity.
Blessed be he that cometh in the name of the LORD:
 we have blessed you out of the house of the LORD.
God is the LORD, which hath shewed us light: bind the sacrifice with cords,
 even unto the horns of the altar.
Thou art my God, and I will praise thee: thou art my God, I will exalt thee.
O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.
KJV

Saturday, August 24, 2013

The Latter House


“Glory of the latter house shall be greater than the former house.”

 

These words from the prophet Haggai are not often comprehended & too often misunderstood!
The former house is the temple of Israel and the literal priesthood. It was full of types and shadows of things to come. Although, the tabernacle of Moses was great in many ways, David wanted to build a house for The Lord. Although David didn't build The Lord a house, his son Solomon, did! He built a great house for the Lord to dwell in. And, from that pattern, other temples were also built as time progressed. These temples contained the Ark of the Covenant, representing the presence of God. However, this great house had no comparison to the spiritual house of Gods making, in Jesus Christ. Jesus became the fulfillment of the journey of the High Priest. Now, there is no place like the church of the Living God. This is where the souls of men are washed, by the washing of the water by the Word of God. God has chosen to place more glory on this "Latter House" than the “Former House”. The church is the spiritual house of the living God.  No longer is it measured by the greatness of its structure nor the materials of which it is constructed! Now, it’s glorified with the high praises and true worship of the saints of the Living God. The saints that are baptized in Jesus name and filled with his Holy Spirit. Lives are changed, transformed & made into the spiritual Israel of God. Called to be saints of the living God, Called out of the darkness of Law into the glorious light of the Perfect Law of Liberty, given by Jesus Christ, to his church. Now, God's ability is loosed to this house.
According to Eph 3:20, "Now unto him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think according to the power that worketh in us."
This power is Faith received from the Word of God that is spoken, preached & taught in this "Latter House". The former house could set back sins for a year. However, the "Latter House" eradicates sin forever! It leaves no condemnation to those who remain faithful to this house. The Glory of the "Latter House" is far greater than the glory of the "former house". The Apostolic Church, the Real Church, the "Latter House" has endured the tests and trials that have tried to stop her. Regardless of the opposition, the doctrine of the Apostles is still the only doctrine that saves & delivers from sin. Men have tried to corrupt and destroy her but she still survives regardless!!!
Jesus built his church on a solid foundation given to his Apostles.  Recorded in the book of Acts and the Epistles. This is a glorious church, which is able to survive the manipulation of wise men. The church is no longer recognized by God as great because of her gold, silver or costliness. Now, it is simply the doctrine preached within the walls of the Apostolic Church, now this is more precious than gold or silver. The gold, the silver... it belongs to God! Yet, he isn't at all interested in these created materials. However, He is interested in the praises of his saints because this is what he inhabits. He lives in those who are in the church, where Apostolic Doctrine is still preached. This is the greater glory, he is no longer in the structure, but now he resides within the people of this house!!!
Submitted by: Pastor Davidson

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Abba, Father


Mar 14:36 KJV -
 And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee;
 take away this cup from me: nevertheless not what I will, but what thou wilt.

Rom 8:15 KJV -
 For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear;
 but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.

Gal 4:6 KJV -
And because ye are sons,
 God hath sent forth the Spirit of his Son into your hearts,
 crying, Abba, Father.

When you cry "Abba, Father", you're really saying,
 "nevertheless not my will but thy will be done".
 
 The anointing to say yes to the will of God comes through
obedience to the Gospel message of Acts 2:38.
 
When people obey the Gospel and receive the Spirit of adoption;
 along with being adopted, comes the anointing from God to consent to his will
for the miraculous to be released into the life of the person.
It was unanimous consent to Gods will by the three Hebrews,
 not to worship an idol.
This released the power to keep them from burning up.
With the added feature of having God with them in the furnace.
They cryed "Abba, Father"
 
And today you can cry "Abba, Father"
 
Submitted by: Pastor Davidson

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

The Hope of the Weary

The Hope of the Weary

Over and over the scripture pulsates through my mind…like a beaconing light from a distant shore…be not weary in well doing…be not weary in well doing…be not weary in well doing…for in due season…in due season…we shall reap if we faint not. Each word springs out like a an individual star shining in a midnight sky. BE not weary in well doing. BE…BE…BE…one of the verbs of being of which there are eight…be, being, been, is, was, were, are, and am…I AM…Jesus said he was THAT I AM…the I AM that spoke from the burning bush and hushed the four hundred year’s of tears of bondage. The I AM that spoke to the Pharisee’s reasoning hearts. The I AM that raised the dead, healed the lame, and opened the blinded eye. The same I AM that promised to be with us always, even unto the end of the world. The great I AM…He is not just an adjective of descriptive phrases, but he the verb of life and being. A God who is not passive but a God of action and omnipotence, glory, and power. 

Be NOT WEARY in well doing. NOT…a negative adverb used to form structures indicating that something is to no degree or in no way the case or conveying the general notion "no." It is often used to express refusal, denial, or the negation of a statement just made. WEARY…tired, especially in having run out of strength, patience, or endurance . Be NOT WEARY in well doing…yes…don’t get tired of doing right. Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good. Don’t lose your patience and allow the flesh to dictate your ways. Don’t be enticed to take the path of least resistance. Eschew evil and run from it. Be not enticed of sinners or deceitful lusts, but hold fast to the Lord. For it is in my patience I am able to possess my soul. The ability to wait upon the Lord and His timing, because the Lord makes EVERYTHING beautiful in HIS TIME. As a marathon runner hits the high’s and low’s in every race, there comes a time when he hits the wall. A place where everything in his body says to quit. All energy in the muscles are zapped cleaned. All nutrients of energy have been depleted, and the fuel gage is below empty. This is where your vision is your only fuel. It is here where your vision must be tapped into. It is here where you find out what you are really made of and where you really stand. Will the mind overcome the matter or will the matter overcome your mind? Will the body bring your mind under subjection or will you raise up the determination and strength to bring your body under subjection to the will of your mind. Be NOT WEARY in well doing. 

Be not weary in WELL DOING. One can get things done just to get them done or they can be accomplished with quality of effort. My coach used to tell us during practice that a ‘perfect practice makes perfect’. How you practice on the mat is how you will wrestle in a match. You can not be lazy in practice and expect perfection against your opponents. Learn and practice a move wrong in practice, then you will hit the move the same way in a match. Weariness causes laziness and slothful living. Weariness of the mind and spirit can create wrong ways of thinking. But there must be something within you that transcends the momentary feelings of weariness. WELL DOING brings right results. Anyone can be lazy. Anyone can get weary and quit. As a matter of fact, there are not too many people anymore who make it past their moment’s of weariness. Quitting is the easiest thing to do. Using weariness as an excuse not to do your best is an easy mind set to commit your ways too. But to continue to do well when everything is contrary, this is where life hangs in the balance. Here in this balance is that proverbial fork in the road. Give up or go forward. The whole world and many of your peers would give you the sympathetic pat on the back and say that they understand how you could not endure. But can you live with yourself? How many times have you quit too soon? How many times have you allowed the weariness of the moment too beat you down only to find out that your prize was just around the corner? If only you could have held on just a little longer your season would have come. 

For in DUE SEASON…in DUE SEASON you shall reap if you faint not. To everything there is a season. A season to laugh and a season to cry. A season of peace and a season of war. Just as the season’s change from summer to fall to winter and back to spring again, so do the season’s of our lives. As we who are now adults have learned that we did not stay young. The season of our youth has long passed and we have traversed through different season’s of our lives. A season of singleness gave way to marriage. From being with no children to having children. Soon, the children will move on and our season will change. Within those season’s we have different trials and temptations, coupled with days in the valley and mountain top victories. Hopefully, with the passing of time, we have learned the law of the seasons. That in every situation of life…whether it be good or bad, in the valley or on the mountain top, rags or riches…it is but a season and it will come to pass. As the cold bleak days of winter give way to the colorful days of spring, rest assured that whatever season your life may be in…it is but a season. There is a harvest and the season will yield it’s fruit when it is rightfully due and then recycle itself again. 

You shall REAP if you faint not…REAP…Be not deceived God is not mocked. What ever a man sow’s so shall he also reap. Every seed brings forth it’s own kind. A cherry seed will never produce an apple tree. It is programmed to only produce a cherry tree. I don’t care how much you wish it too be different or how much fertilizer you put on that seed. It will only produce what it was created to produce. When you sow sensual, carnal seeds of lusts upon the ground of your heart, these will NEVER produce good things in your life. How can they? Just as the cherry seed will only produce a cherry tree so it is the same with the thought seeds of our lives. Bad thoughts do not produce good thoughts. It doesn’t matter how much the world says differently. It doesn’t matter how much Hollywood tried to make evil look good and glorifies the life of the party, these seeds will only produce more evil. Here lies the scary part, that when the seed is planted it produces another plant just like itself, but within the makeup of that plant is the genetic code to survive and the only way too do this is too produce and abundance of seeds just like itself. One kernel seed of corn does not produce a cob bearing one seed on it, but it produces a cob with an abundance of seeds. So not only will evil thoughts (seeds) not be able to produce good thoughts, but they will exponentially reproduce themselves. 

Herein lies the hope of the weary…be not weary in WELL DOING…it doesn’t matter if all the world is doing evil. It doesn’t matter if all your peers are living a life of drunkenness and debauchery. A day is coming where the seeds of well doing will bring forth a harvest…not of evil but of victory. Victory is the only thing that can spring up because well doing will never bring forth a harvest that is contrary to the seed. Though you may get tired and the plow becomes hard to push. The ground may get brittle at times and it is possible that all the good you seem to be doing looks for naught. Don’t faint. Don’t give up the fight. For in due season YOU shall reap if YOU faint not.

Submitted by: Elder David Green

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Our church



How do you fall in LOVE with Jesus!!!

How do you fall in love with Jesus!!!
 
 
How many times I have heard it preached "fall in love or make love to Jesus". Which from my background sounded strange. But Rom 1:20 tells us that the natural things explain the spiritual things. Preachers use the natural everyday things to help us get an understanding of God.
Jesus said in John 14:15"If you love Me, keep My commandments". If I told you that straight out, you might do that, but out of duty; so to speak. The law is a perfect example, God said they follow me with their lips, but their heart is far from me. You can keep His commandments showing that you love Him, however you can love something more than Him.
If you go a few verses down to John 14:21, Jesus said He will love him and manifest Himself unto him. Or Show Himself to them.
Thy Maker is thine Husband. We are His bride. The greatest thing about that is that its individual and its also as a whole body. When you think about "Falling in Love" the term is used when you go over and above "normal" feelings for someone or thing. Doing and giving to that person or thing is not grievous. 1 John 5:3 For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous.

Rev 2:1-5
Unto the angel of the church of Ephesus write; These things saith he that holdeth the seven stars in his right hand, who walketh in the midst of the seven golden candlesticks; I know thy works, and thy labour, and thy patience, and how thou canst not bear them which are evil: and thou hast tried them which say they are apostles, and are not, and hast found them liars: And hast borne, and hast patience, and for my name's sake hast laboured, and hast not fainted. Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love. Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick out of his place, except thou repent.KJV

Except thou repent....Repent of what? They were doing the commandments. Because thou hast left thy first love.
You're making dinner every night, taking care of the house, groceries, kids, praying, reading...doing all the things your suppose to do. Your Husband comes home and you yell out, "hi Honey, dinner will be ready in five minutes", you sit down to eat, pray and begin to pass the food, talk about the daily activties.....the night goes on and now its time for bed. You both lay down, he rolls over and looks you strait in the face and asks "do you love me?". You would look at him funny. What do you mean? (Most men will not be the one asking this question, but its the same situation. The man works all day, comes home eats dinner, runs to the computer or something else....gets to the same place and his wife rolls over and asks the same question) He looks at her and says "What?"
The duties / commandments are being done. He goes to work, you clean the house..if they weren't being done, you would really feel unloved. However The Husband & Wife relantionship goes deep into the heart.
When you were "falling in love", other things were important but not over seeing, hearing or sharing with him. When you first got married and you made dinner, you couldn't wait to sit down together and eat it with him, Your FIRST Love.

How do you "fall in love" with Jesus, Make Him the Joy behind the commandments your doing. You get dressed everyday in Holiness. The next time you're going to leave your house and go to the store; just before you leave, go and look in the mirror and check yourself out. As your doing that, think that God is in the living room waiting to take you to store. Sound crazy, not really. You put on Holiness because its His favorite "Dress". You've been doing it for so long, that you just do it. But you have a reason and He is it. And really He does go to the store and every place else with you. He'll never leave you. You'll be surprised how you notice a fuzzy on your shirt, where as before you just got dressed.

How do you "Make love" to Jesus in prayer or worship, when you open the secret parts of your heart to Him, the deep confusions, hurts and desires and allow Him to walk into the tender spots of your life. The healing and freedom that comes from that type of intimate relationship with Him. Is beyond this worlds comprehension. Making love with your spouse isn't just the act, its the intimate relationship you built up so that when you come together its more than a touch, its a total trust and giving of ones self to the other.

When a Preacher or worship leader says: Fall in love with Jesus or lets make love to Jesus, you are really beinging called to go above your normal level of desire and give of yourself to please Him. Its not the "romantic" thing, its a giving thing. You lift up your arms and worship Him like there is no one else in the room, because He is there.

Submitted by: Tina Marie

Friday, August 2, 2013

Confronted By My Beliefs

Confronted By My Beliefs

There I sat dumbfounded. Everything froze and then began to move in slow motion. Then, like in some surreal time warp, my mind raced to and fro. It had hit me like a curve ball and sucked the wind right out of my sails. The unexpected unexpectedly grabbed the insides of my heart and began to strangle the intellectual jugular of my mind. EVERYTHING I ever believed or thought I believed was brought in front of my face and paraded itself before my eyes.
It was the fall of 1984 and I was an aspiring intellect at a well known Big Ten university. A college purveyor of ‘truth’ and intellectualism, I was on top of my world. I was at the pinnacle of my career as a young ‘professional’ student. Emboldened with the teachings of great professors I was going out into the world as secondary education teacher. If there was anyone in the world walking around with a chip on his shoulder, I surely could have been the poster child of chip holders. Filled with these ‘new’ philosophies, I would surely change the world. Child by child, student by student, I would teach and help facilitate a revolution of change into the heartland of the American mind set. How could I fail? I had the teachings of Nietzsche, Freud, Jung, and Maslow at the foundation of my pursuit. With Pink Floyd’s, ‘Dark Side of the Moon’ and the sexual revolution of the sixties pushing me forward into this mass matrix of society, how could I fail? The voices of feminists like Gloria Steinem and Marylyn French screamed down the corridors of my brain, reverberating and echoing their mantras on equal rights and the feminist movement. I had read so much of the feminist literature concerning the male patriarchs and the biases of this unequal system, that I was mad at all men, including myself. I was mad at all those who pushed their ‘ways’ and tried to make me into their image. I was mad at anyone in authority or anyone who was unrelenting in the quest to perpetrate an already too far gone and broken system. Armed with this vast array of knowledge, like an intellectual matador, I had the proverbial bull by the horns and nobody was going to get in my way. But then the bull came charging home!
"I am pregnant." my girlfriend said in a shattered stare of unbelief. So there I was staggered and speechless, and all I could do was try to reign in the moment. Vacillating between what I thought I believed and what I truly believed, I momentarily sat stagnant in the midst of a truth that I could not deny. My girlfriend had just told me she was pregnant with my child. There in the student union my thoughts encompassed me with the reality of this truth. In her womb MY baby was growing and in an instant, all that I ever believed or at least what I thought I believed came to a crashing halt. Like the apostle Peter, weeping bitterly when he was confronted with what he really believed. I too sat motionless in a sea of emotions as my past crowed before me. I don’t remember thinking how could this happen to me, but realizing that there was a baby in her womb and that baby was mine. I don’t remember feeling like a victim or even bitter. To me, the next step was obvious, we would get married and I would be the father to my child. But to my chagrin the words my girlfriend spoke were carbon copies of all the things that I thought I believed. Pro choice, women’s rights, and the ERA spoke from her heart and when she said she wanted to have an abortion all I could hear her say was she wanted to kill my baby. Her lips moved, but I really could not hear what she was saying, because I was finally confronted with what I believed and it did not match anything that I thought I believed. All the feminist rhetoric and political ideology that was born in the pursuit of logic and intellectualism could not withstand the assault of the confrontation of my beliefs. This wasn’t a mere piece of flesh in her womb, nor was it a ‘fetus’, a blob, or any other politically protected name the feminist movement hid behind. This was a growing living human being and not only that, it was MINE.
Frantic and trying to come to grips with reality. My words were firm and sure, let’s do the right thing. But her right thing and my right thing were two different things. Now that I knew what I truly believe, I would not go down without a fight. Knowing I could not hit her with an ‘in your face assault’ I tried to move stealthily and subtly. Hiding pamphlets advocating the birth of our child or statistics concerning abortion, I tried a myriad of plans to dissuade her from her foundation of feminist ideology. Soon she became aware of my subtle ways and became more openly repulsed by the idea of keeping the baby. The more I seemed to fight the more determined she became to stick to her course of action. She insisted it was her body and she could do with it what she wanted. With or without me, she was determined to get an abortion.
I don’t really remember saying much as we walked together to the off campus abortion clinic. And though we walked together, we were both alone. Illusionary. Surreal. Dreamlike. Pretend. Make-believe. The memories of that day are faded and somewhat masked behind a pain that is very difficult to describe. Life as I knew it would never be the same. I was a changed man. And after the abortion, there was no doubt that she was a changed woman also. Her words expressed it and her emotions forever echoed from her conversations from that day on. Soon, our relationship began to spiral downward and out of control. Two very different worlds had collided and exploded in our faces. Like on some Hollywood picture screen, the inevitable course of sin had played itself out. Lust, sin, and then death.
I don’t know where she is today nor have I heard from her. I do admit, that I do think about her from time to time. How could I not? We shared this past and I do wonder how she is doing and whether or not she has recovered from that tragic moment in our lives. There is a saying that ‘time heals the wounds that no one can see’ and even though it’s been over twenty years, there are times when my past tries to reconvict me and put me on trial again for the murder of my unborn child, and I have to fight back with all that I have been taught in God’s Word. I have to resist, believe, and know that God’s forgiveness is as far as the east is from the west. His mercy is everlasting and my life is now in His hands. But these are the scars and weights of sin that many of us carry with us into the future. The deep and hidden pains of ignorant decisions guided by nothing but carnal knowledge that rises up to haunt us and try to stifle the new creature that God is creating in each of us.
And when this past tries to blur my future and cloud my mind, I look over at my beautiful wife who loves the Lord with all her heart and I hug my two precious daughters and love them with all the love that I can muster up from within me. I am a changed man. I am not the same and for that I am thankful. In these moments, I remember what I have learned and how that moment forever changed me. It was a very pivotal point in my life when I learned that talk really is cheap and it is easy to say you believe something, but in reality, you really won’t know what you believe until you are confronted with what you believe.

Submitted by: Elder David Green